Timetych

up before the alarm

sleeping

walking the dog

dreaming

rushing to work

waking

reading

sipping tea

resting

sharing

lingering sunsets

holding back tears

hiding the pain

adapting

cleaning

washing

rushing to prepare dinner

dwindling energy

              at my working day’s end

preparing for the inevitable

eating more chocolate

eating less

drinking more wine

drinking Sustagen

drinking coffee

accepting

soiling

saddening

showering

apologizing

self conscious

missing intimacy

worn out

struggling

counselling and antidepressants

morphine and herbal remedies

sleeping

not sleeping

cuddling

watching movies

sitting

holding hands

fading

washed

dressed

and kissed

goodbye.

in memory of Denis, 

St Valentine’s Day, 2015.